Here's the deal.  My best friend since middle school shot herself the day after Mothers Day.  I've done enough thinking about that for now, so I don't really want to write about it but I am having a very hard time getting things done right now.  Everything seems very daunting yet unimportant.  I've been reading about how to motivate yourself when you are depressed and am about to get moving.  I need to clean my room because it depresses me in itself that I spend too damn much time in it and it is so messy.  I feel the need to simplify my life, to get rid of things that I don't use/need/aren't good for me.  It's hot as balls outside and I have all the fans and no pants.  I feel bad for my dog because she is very hairy but she is sleeping in front of a fan right now so I think she will be okay.  I just need to think about the loveliness of the end result, having things look nice and be in their place will lessen my stress considerably which is what I am really going for right now.
SO.  Cleaning my room.  Doing it.  First I will have some coffee and look at the newspaper really quick.  I would also like to dye my hair this weekend and work out at least once.  Baby steps?
Okay.