Dear 2011,
You were really not so bad. It seems like most people want to say that you sucked and that 2012 will either be totally great or suck just as much, etc. But you know what? You were not so bad. I broke up with my bf, moved into a pretty cute apartment with my sister, stayed friends with the bf and had some fun with my sister. Got a raise at work and more responsibility, which led to me getting a new (to me) car which I think might be having some problems but that is a story for another day.
You know what I learned this year? That when I am myself things are okay. I might nerd out, I might not be the life of the party, but things are good. People are okay and not that scary, they aren't all judging me and I need to just have a good time.
You know what I've learned from writing this post? That I need to think about things more and maybe write about them in order to figure them out.
New Years Resolutions: Write more, think about things. Cook more and pack my lunches. Get more exercise (I have my fitness orientation scheduled at my new gym on 1/2,) live within a budget, keep in touch with my family more. Basically chill out when I can, work hard when I have to, and journal. I used to journal a lot and I stopped because things changed and I stopped being so self absorbed. But maybe it's not such a bad thing to examine myself, etc.
Anyway, this is what I'm doing on NYE. Watching HIMYM on Netflix and having cocktails. Wondering how I'm going to kill the next 3 hours. I kind of want to be around other people, but I don't want to go out. Yay. Happy New Year!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Sunday, December 18, 2011
It's my birthday today! Yaaaaay. I'm 32. Whoa, not yaaaay.
I would like to spend time thinking about all of the valuable things that I've learned this year but I can't really think of any. I am more comfortable with myself and other people, I feel like I have things to offer. I don't judge myself in comparision to other people as much anymore, but then again, I don't really push myself to do anything either. Overall, it's been a good year and although my health isn't great and I could use some work on mindfulness and working on some feelings I'm pretty happy.
Things I would like to work on this year:
Honestly, I would like to lose weight. But for once it's not for purely asthetic reasons. I am getting older and it will continue to get harder to move about, etc. I would like to put more effort into feeling good physically. I would like to move more, whether it be walking, running, yoga, etc. I just want to do stuff, spend more time outdoors, and feel stronger.
I would like to put more effort into eating better and laying off of the night time snack sessions where I'm too awake to go to bed but too lazy to do anything else but eat. My goal is at least 5 servings of fruits/vegetables per day right now. I'm not even really sure what a serving of vegetables is but I would like to learn more about food as delicious fuel, not a time filler.
I would like to take my vitamins every day.
I would like to quit smoking.
I would like to stick to a money budget better, I don't have much savings and for the next 6 months I'll be making more money so now is a good time to squirrel away savings.
Then, the fun stuff. I would like to go visit my mom in Louisiana and my family in Texas.
I would like to buy an acoustic guitar to toodle around on.
It seems like it would be easy to do these things. I am an armchair planner. Things seem easy when you are lying in bed writing about them on the internet, but when it comes to everyday life things are a little bit harder to deal with. Plans are harder to stick to after a long day of work. But everything is cyclical and every effort affects other efforts. For example, if I were to get some walking in on a regular basis I would feel stronger and have more energy, therefore I wouldn't feel so tired after work and be able to cook more healthy things, and be able to walk again in the evenings if I wasn't ready to crash at 5pm.
It would be wise to consider decisions in the present as effects in the future. Make tomorrow me love today me. I think this is a worthy and not too lofty goal.
I would like to spend time thinking about all of the valuable things that I've learned this year but I can't really think of any. I am more comfortable with myself and other people, I feel like I have things to offer. I don't judge myself in comparision to other people as much anymore, but then again, I don't really push myself to do anything either. Overall, it's been a good year and although my health isn't great and I could use some work on mindfulness and working on some feelings I'm pretty happy.
Things I would like to work on this year:
Honestly, I would like to lose weight. But for once it's not for purely asthetic reasons. I am getting older and it will continue to get harder to move about, etc. I would like to put more effort into feeling good physically. I would like to move more, whether it be walking, running, yoga, etc. I just want to do stuff, spend more time outdoors, and feel stronger.
I would like to put more effort into eating better and laying off of the night time snack sessions where I'm too awake to go to bed but too lazy to do anything else but eat. My goal is at least 5 servings of fruits/vegetables per day right now. I'm not even really sure what a serving of vegetables is but I would like to learn more about food as delicious fuel, not a time filler.
I would like to take my vitamins every day.
I would like to quit smoking.
I would like to stick to a money budget better, I don't have much savings and for the next 6 months I'll be making more money so now is a good time to squirrel away savings.
Then, the fun stuff. I would like to go visit my mom in Louisiana and my family in Texas.
I would like to buy an acoustic guitar to toodle around on.
It seems like it would be easy to do these things. I am an armchair planner. Things seem easy when you are lying in bed writing about them on the internet, but when it comes to everyday life things are a little bit harder to deal with. Plans are harder to stick to after a long day of work. But everything is cyclical and every effort affects other efforts. For example, if I were to get some walking in on a regular basis I would feel stronger and have more energy, therefore I wouldn't feel so tired after work and be able to cook more healthy things, and be able to walk again in the evenings if I wasn't ready to crash at 5pm.
It would be wise to consider decisions in the present as effects in the future. Make tomorrow me love today me. I think this is a worthy and not too lofty goal.
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