My life isn't really that fucked. In fact, it's pretty good. If I were to actually engage and take action on some things it would be great.
After a few months of relative moderation, as in I only had wine at home on weekends every once and a while, it's gone back to drinking rum with C at the bar on a weekend. And sometimes happy hours. I have been hungover to work a few times in the past month and I do not feel good about that. Friday was a debaucherous night of bar ridiculousness, staying up into the wee hours, and wasting an entire Saturday recovering. My job has become much more demanding in the past few months and will remain so until next October at least. BUT I got a raise for the next year and it's a good one and I just bought a new car and gave my old one to my sister. Things are good. I am able to do good things for myself and others. I just realized that my life is GOOD but it's mostly circumstantial. I do not go out of my way to make it so. And that really sucks. Anyway, here are some things I will do today to unfuck my life:
Drink all of the water
Sweep and mop my kitchen
Clean out my fridge
Go to the store for poblano and chili pepper, limes, fire roasted tomatoes, and freezer bags
Make turkey dumpling soup, smoked chipotle turkey soup, and turkey chili (if I have enough turkey.) Freeze the last two.
Dye hair
Return movies to library, look for some good motivational books?
Buy a newspaper
Go for a walk with C later this afternoon
Drive by the gym on Central and write down the phone number
I can't do another rum soaked holiday season. Things could be so much better if I just put some effort and thought into them.
