This is probably one of the stupidest things that I have written.  Only because I am 31 years old and these thoughts came to me this morning like a bolt of lightning.  This is something that I should have realized a long time ago.  Do people know this?  Is this a part of the lives of others?  Why hasn't anyone told me about it?
Anyway, this morning I woke up late (totally on purpose, I love my snooze button) and stressed out in my car the whole way to work.  I had to be here at 8am to let some people into the office and it was rainy this morning so it wasn't looking good.  I got here at 8:04  but that's besides the point.  I was seriously MAD.  Mad at the traffic, mad at stupid people driving slowly, mad at myself for waking up late, but most of all mad at myself for being so MAD.  I mean, there wasn't anything I could do about it by the time I was in my car and stuck in traffic.  What is wrong with me that I could get so mad about something I can't change?  I am just an angry and terrible person! 
We were out of coffee at the office this morning and I drove up to the drugstore to get some.  I have to cross a very busy street at a stoplight and drivers were stopping in the middle of the intersection instead of waiting behind.  I waited through two green lights unable to get across the street.  WHAT IS WRONG WIHT THESE PEOPLE WHERE DO THEY THINK THEY ARE GOING TO GO? 
What is wrong with me that I want to jump out of my car and start swinging a bat?
It hit me.  I was so much calmer when my car was busted and I took the bus.  I don't like driving in the morning and I don't like driving in the city.  Especially towards the end of the month when I'm wicked hormonal.  I should keep taking the bus.
I feel stressed out and rushed when I abuse my snooze button.  It throws off my whole day.  Instead of wishing that I could change my reaction, I should just wake up on time. 
I made a fool out of myself this weekend by drinking too much at a work function and beat myself up about it all weekend.  It never feels good to hate yourself.  Instead of wishing I had more love and forgiveness for myself maybe I should do things that allow me to love myself. 
I guess what I'm saying is that instead of assuming that I'm a bad person because I don't react to bad situations in a healthy way maybe I could put more effort into changing the external issues that cause me stress. 
Driving in the morning stresses me out: --> Ride the bus
Rushing to work stresses me out --> Wake up on time
Being hungover sucks --> Don't drink
Feeling unhealthy brings me down --> Make an effort to exercise and eat right
Being broke is stressful --> Pay more attention to finances
Snapping at my sister and my mom makes me feel really bad -->Don't drink --> Don't mess up and make them worry-->Don't snap and get defensive when they bring it up 
I mean, this all seems so obvious, right?  I realize however that I always think about the things I "should" be doing differently just for the sake of doing them.  Because this is what "should" be done.  BUT the effects of these actions are inevitable and I think I forget about them.  I can feel better about myself, healthier, have more money, and less stress...not by changing my reactions to things, but by actually changing the things that solicit reactions. 
So yeah.  That's something. Doing the dishes makes the whole house look better and it's not hard so why not do it?  Small changes can affect bigger things and I do have some control over my life.  Granted, I don't have total control but the things that I can change are there for the changing. 
TL:DR  Driving stresses me out.  I think I will start taking the bus even if I have a choice in the matter.
The end.